Creativity Overload; Outcomes & Expectations

Currently, I’m overwhelmed with creative opportunity; and this past weekend I spend much of my time somewhat paralyzed over the decision of what I should be doing. Obviously what I noticed, is in times when there is indecision, nothing really ever gets done and one tends to feel totally without power. What offered great relief, was being able to take time and question the thoughts I was having, and identifying if they were even true.

What I realized, with a renewed perspective, is that nothing needed to be done, and much if not all of my wants and desires, were based on an expectation of what the future “should” hold. My paralysis stemmed from my desire to control that which ultimately is out of my control. I believed I should be somewhere other than where I was right now. As I release this want, for my life it be other than what it is, I discover more joy in doing the creative things I’m able to do right now.

Another thought that brought suffering, was the idea that somehow the use of these creative talents equaled a certain quality of life. In reality, this is something that can only be hoped for, not truly what is; and it’s hopefulness is based off of a comparison I’ve created in my mind, a comparison not based on my reality, but on the perceived reality of others. All of this thinking, all of this thought of what should be, what should not be, and what it better end up being, is the source of being removed from now. The reality of truth, is that all I can do, is whatever it is I do. Therefore, I can only do what I can now, I can only work with what I have now, and I can only create where I am now.

In my doing-ness now, I will find much more enjoyment and fulfillment if I release any expectation that it should turn out a certain way, or mean something definite when it’s done. Sure, there lies many possibilities for an outcome, but for me to attempt to define what that should be, only puts limitations on what the universe may have in store.

Did you find genuine value within this post? If you did, then most likely you know someone else who will as well. I invite you to share the goodness!
Namaste -Tigmonk